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insecurities || gokudera hayato
Insecurities
A Gokudera Hayato oneshot
Valentine’s Day.
Oh, wretched date, why must you arrive? Why, oh why, can’t
you just skip over and be a normal day for once, so it would be easier?
Sora fidgeted, nervous that tomorrow was the dreaded day.
Sure, she has already made the chocolates she wanted to distribute to everyone
she loves, but there was one person she wanted to receive it, most of all.
Him. Her only love.
She shook her head; her mind telling her that she’s
delusional. After all, Gokudera has never been informed that she likes him, much
less the fact that all times she teased him was just so he could notice her.
They never even dated, so why should she go through all the trouble, anyway? It
wasn’t like Gokudera was expecting anything sweet that came from her. He’s also
a definite heartthrob; he’d probably receive millions of homemade chocolate and
gifts from girls all over Namimori. Compared to the other girls, who was she,
anyway?
“Great, just great. A night away from that day and you’re thinking like that, brain! Thanks for helping!”
Sora expected to hear her brain say “Anytime, love!”. Her
brain’s the natural scumbag with this, huh?
The morning greeted her with its tempting, warm rays and
mockingly great weather. The sun wasn’t too strong; clouds were covering up some
of the unnecessary heat. Birds were out, too, singing their songs of love.
Animals came in couples today; enjoying the day as sweethearts, like the
humans.
“Oh, that’s just awesome, nature. You’re conniving with my
brain! I hate you!”
And since when did the cheery, easygoing and mischievous
Midori Sora hate nature? Blame her own nervousness, anxiety, and fears with
that, okay?
She clutched the extra bag she brought with her, to help her
deal with the boxes of chocolate and other gifts she had for everybody. Her
load was actually halved that morning; she had already left her gifts to her
Guardians in their respective rooms in the Manor. All that was left now was for
her friends outside her Famiglia, such as the people she know in Vongola, and
some other people.
The first she saw that day was Sawada Tsunayoshi, who was
walking to school earlier than expected. He looked a little nervous; maybe he
was expecting of a gift from Kyoko and Haru. Sora took this opportunity to give
Tsuna his chocolate and gift which she made herself (except for the gift; she
bought it).
“Tsu-fish~!”
The Tenth Vongola Boss shot a look at the direction of the
voice, as the blonde Boss of Scintilla ran to him, smiling and waving.
“A-ah? Ohayou, Sora-san!”
Sora rummaged in her bag, looking for Tsuna’s gift, and
pulled it out immediately. In her hand, she held a fish plushie, and a
rectangular box of chocolates, with a note attached.
“To Tsu-fish: Happy
Valentine’s Day! Good luck with running Vongola, alright~? You’re gonna need
all the help you can get! ~Sora”
“Thanks, Sora-san!”
The blonde girl smiled, cheery that she has given the first
of her other presents, but her spine crept to her with a sudden chill when she
heard a familiar voice.
“Juudaime!”
In that instant, Sora can’t speak, and her face began to
lose its peach color, but a noticeable red hue stayed at her cheeks. She
hurriedly said goodbye to Tsuna and ran off, leaving Tsuna a little confused,
but he smiled at her sympathetically.
“Good morning, Juudaime! Wow, you have a Valentine’s present
already? Wow! I knew Juudaime is so popular! Who gave it to you, Kyoko?”
Tsuna looked at his self-proclaimed right hand man,
Gokudera, with an embarrassed face. “A-ah, anou, no! Sora-san just gave it to
me a moment ago.”
“Huh. Why would that baka give you chocolates today?”
Tsuna handed Gokudera the note that came with his present,
and Gokudera read it nonchalantly. He shot a quick, angered look at the note,
and complained that it was degrading his “precious Juudaime”. Tsuna assured to
him that Sora was just joking, but Gokudera won’t let it off the hook easily.
Sora arrived at the gate of Namimori, where she spotted
Ryohei with Kyoko, and Yamamoto. After handing her gifts to everybody, she ran
off again, half-fearful that she might be late for her classes, and
half-fearful that Gokudera might see her there. She left hurriedly, and as she
turned around the corner, Tsuna and Gokudera arrived at the gates. Everybody
discussed about their gifts, with Ryohei’s being a boxing glove plushie with
the words “To the Extreme!” embroidered on it, Kyoko’s gift being a plushie
that looked like the Namimori Custard Creampuff, and Yamamoto’s being a fluffy
baseball glove plushie. They all wondered why Gokudera haven’t received
anything from Sora, but he shrugged it off, saying that he didn’t have time for
that rubbish, as his main concern was Juudaime. He was then surrounded by
girls, as with Yamamoto and Ryohei, who were all eager to give their own gifts
to the three people.
The day passed by slowly, but it was happy, nonetheless.
Sora has given her gift to Haru, who was pleasantly surprised with the gift,
and decided that she and Kyoko should do the same, too.
Sora’s last stop on her list was Tsuna’s house, where I-Pin,
Reborn, Bianchi, Lambo and Sawada Nana,
otherwise known as Tsuna’s Mother, received their own gifts, with I-Pin’s
plushie being a dumpling, Reborn’s plushie was a lizard which looked like Leon,
Bianchi’s was a scorpion plushie, Lambo had a cow plushie and Nana got a “Best
Mom” apron. Sora hesitated on leaving when Nana asked her if she wanted to eat
dinner with them, but when Yamamoto and Gokudera arrived to hang out with
Tsuna, her decision became a resolve. She didn’t want to confront Gokudera on
the Day of Hearts; she’s afraid he might just reject her. As a girl, it is
painful for her to experience such, but what would she do? Throw all dignity
away and lunge at him, confessing her love? His main, and only, concern was
Tsuna; she was nothing more than just a girl who happens to be a little
annoying, but is his Boss’ friend.
Besides, he rejects gifts for him during Valentine’s Day, so
why would hers be any different, anyway?
But her heart pounded, pleaded. Please, oh please, give him
the gift! Say what you want to say! Tackle him, wrestle him if you have to!
This feeling’s gonna burst out!
Her mind protested, saying that it would only be very
awkward between the two of them.
But there was a way out, even if it was painful. That was
the only way she could be friends with him, and keep her secret a… secret.
“Oii! Ahodera!”
“What, woman?!?”
“Here’s your bloody present!”
Gokudera received his own gift, a box of chocolate in a
heart-shaped container with a kitten plushie.
“Don’t get any ideas! I ran out of boxes!”
“Jeez, woman! I’m not getting any ideas! What makes you
think I’d get any, anyway?”
Sora smiled her cheeky grin
“Just so you know, Bianchi-chan made those with me!”
Gokudera spat out the chocolate he already popped in his
mouth, shocked at what Sora (falsely) revealed.
“WHAT?!? ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME, DAMN WOMAN?!?”
“Ma~aybe~.” Sora slyly teased, as she watched his fury with
relish. Her heart wanted to scream out how stupid Sora was for ruining her
chances, but she held the emotion back. She held away the tears that wanted to
creep out, her regret that she did, in fact, let the moment slip away, but he
won’t even care if she said the truth anyway. She’d gladly die first before she
said anything.
Not that it won’t happen in the near future, without either
of them knowing.
And neither of them knew, either, that they were growing
fond of each other, whether they like it or not.
alkfdsjgaslkj I'm so horrible ;_________;
See, Sora, that's what you get when you love a gay retard like Gokudera
(Sora: Hey! YOU designed me!)
(Gokudera: Hey! I'm not gay!)
Whatever.
In any case, this is best read when you're listening to "Key To My Heart" by Jessica Jarrell.
Trust me, IT'S PERFECT. In fact, it was the inspiration.
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